this past weekend
i took part in Dee Donaldson's 3 day drawing workshop.
it has taken me a while to gather myself and my thoughts since...
i'm not sure i can put words to it yet but i will give it a try:
it was amazing, tough, exhausting and enlightening.
i have never done anything creative or related to art harder than this.
Dee wasn't asking for pretty drawings with nice shading.
she wanted a rawness, gut responses, she wanted us to dig deeper, to play,
to rely on sensation rather than thoughts.
and that was so hard... i wrestled with myself a lot of the time;
with the conditioned parts of me who wanted to make a pretty but emotionless drawing,
with the part of me that wanted to do it "right",
the part of me that wanted to know what was "expected of me".
my head and thoughts struggled to let go of what i "should" be drawing
but here and there in the course i had little glimpses of what it is
like to "respond from my gut", to let it come up from deep inside of me.
the drawings i share here are the ones where i feel i dropped deeper and trusted that
i could respond... such an incredible, fleeting feeling.
i feel that these three days have rocked my arting world
and will bring many changes to my practice.
i feel the need to go inward, to dig deep to hopefully discover what my creative voice really, really
looks like.
i feel as if i'm standing at a doorway not sure of what is coming just yet.
