and into december we go...
i'll be honest, this has been the toughest month so far.
i've been intrigued as to why that is
and here are a few reasons that seem to make sense:
- i can smell the end... i'm not particularly good at completing
things. i'm more a "new beginnings" kind of person.
- the pressure if off... i'm done with the exhibition which means
i could be taking a break but i need to keep going with my daily faces
and it's taken me a bit more courage and stamina
than it did while i was in full arting mode.
- i'm less organized... while getting ready for the show i was super
organized and efficient at planning my studio hours
and life in general.
now i am in holiday mode,
and while i like the relaxed freedom of it
i realized that my creativity needs a bit of structure and routine.
- i'm resisting the end... as much as i am looking forward to ticking off
the 365 faces, there is a part of me that is slightly daunted with
the "and now?" part of finishing such a big challenge.
what am i going to paint? what am i going to share?
will i still create as much?
how will it feel not to have that commitment every day?
(clearly this is a big one :) )
but then again, i'm rushing ahead.
something i do often.
the year is not over, and the next step will appear.
stay present. stay present. stay present...